Nite all...
I am little confused to write something in this blog... but I really want to write anything... There is no idea in my mind to write it down... Many things in my mind want to tell to you. But it just stops and I do not know how I could begin... I have many crowded things or complicated thought in my mind. I can tell one by one or step by step... It is just messiness and so... complicated...
Ffuihhh... I do not know what I should say... Why it looks like so terrible??!!
My life is crushed by my thought, I guess...
Okay, I will try to analyze my terrible things in my mind one by one...
1. My Thesis
Yes, it is my most terrible things in my mind latest day... it always follows me anywhere, anytime... Recently, it it is so happy to be my nightmare! ok thanks... Huhhh... I got my headache now... Ok, for your information, I will tell about my thesis, just a bit... I am in 8th semester in my subject now... I have to write my thesis for graduation...
I choose Literature to be my thesis. Twilight Novel by Stepehenie Meyer is my object research. Have u read this novel? I guess, you do. It was best seller books in Amazon, awarded as 1 on The New York Times bestseller, ALA Top Ten Books for Young Adults, Best Book of the Decade...So Far", A Teen People "Hot List" pic, An American Library Association "Top Ten Best Book for Young Adults" and "Top Ten Books for Reluctant Readers".(Ohh.. I think I promoted this novel -_-")
In my thesis, I will analyze about a love story of the main characters Bella-Edward by using Deconstruction Theory (you can klik http://id.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dekonstruksi). My thesis's title is "Deconstructing Bella-Edward's Love Story in Stephenie Meyer 's Twilight. It looks nice title, right? But, there are complicated things what I got... I got my problem in searching books or information about it, arranging my proposal thesis and understanding my theory *ohh I got headache again... so I will stop it before it will be worst..
2. My Future (What should I do after my graduation???)
It is my BIG question which is always around my mind... I guess, I get paranoid or syndrom maybe...
But it is included to my terrible things in my mind, I guess... I just can not stop to think about it... it comes without invitation, gone without permission (such as Jelangkuk). Am I going to continue my studying (S2) or must I find a job??????? I really got paranoid now... will u give me some suggestion or advise to reduce my syndrom??
3. There is nothing to get my joy and happiness back
I have nothing to make me laughing recently. I have no novels, no interesting movies, no joking and no money (the last is most important!) Huhhh... For God's sake! I got suferring... *jumping for crying in shower... can anyone give me that things??
I think, All of them is the terrible thing which have been stayed and around in my mind, without invitation, without permission *jelangkuk wanna be...
Owhh, for God's sake, I am sick of tired for this... Give me little joy please... *crying loud in my pillow :'(
Ok maybe I am overacting now... but it is who I am.. :p
I need a fuckin-joke for laughing... :( You can comment in my blog, my facebook, my twitter or send me message... ok... thanks so much for listening... *kiss huge
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